I rang in the new year last night in my apartment with Max. My flight back ended up being fine, despite an hour and a half delay in Toronto that almost made me miss my TGV train in Paris. Thankfully the passport control and luggage gods were with me, and it only took me about 30 minutes to get off the plane, get my stuff, then race through Terminal 2 to the train station. I just barely made my train to Lyon (but I did!), and Max was waiting at the other end to pick me up and drive us home (where I was greeted by kisses from a very happy group of bébés).
I took a nap in order to stave off the jetlag long enough to ring in the New year with Max. We toasted at midnight with a glass of champagne and resolutions to make 2013 a good year, filled with happy memories and future projects. The problem is, with Max's job, we are never certain about the future, the long-term, anyway. I honestly can't say where we'll be at this time next year, and it's (somewhat) ok. He might be transferred elsewhere in France (we are trying for Annecy), we might move into a new apartment here in the small town where we currently live, and I have no idea what kind of job I'll be doing (if any at all!). I used to be a planner, and my new year's resolutions were tied up with plotting and projecting everything to follow after January, but I've learned that's not how I can do things now. I'm slowly teaching myself to just go with the flow, enjoy the present, and adapt to whatever life brings us. It's not easy, but I'm better off for it. Life is short, after all, and stressing about what may or not conspire in the future won't make things any easier in the present.
So that said, I don't have any solid resolutions besides trying to get over my fear of driving. I drove a bit while I was in Canada, and I'd like to find the confidence I had for navigating Canadian roads here in France. I think I'd feel a lot more independent if I weren't so hung up on taking the car and having to drive myself somewhere. Building confidence while driving can only come by actually doing it, so I've resolved to take more and more short trips to places I haven't dared go before now to see if it gets easier and less stressful for me. I'm not sure I'll ever be a confident driver, but I'm not helping myself by always saying, "no, I can't" or, "I'll wait for Max to take me instead."
I'd like to give a shout out to my friend and fellow blogger, Decoybetty. She writes a great blog about being an American expat in Australia, a vegetarian, a new wife, and animal lover. She also held a giveaway a month or so ago, which I won (!), and my beautiful new necklace and earrings set were waiting for me when I got home yesterday. I encourage you all to check out her blog (on my blogroll), and also the Etsy shop where the jewellery came from because the creator has some really pretty and affordable stuff for sale!
|My new necklace :) Isn't it gorgeous? Just my style.|
|And the dangly earrings :)|
And to my family & friends back in Canada...I love you all and miss you already.